Ryan's Journal

"My life amounts to no more than one drop in a limitless ocean. Yet what is any ocean, but a multitude of drops?" — David Mitchell

Afraid of the Light

Posted from Lafayette, California at 3:05 am, May 21st, 2005

For whatever reason insomnia strikes me nearly once each month, and this month’s installment is a particularly fun one. Last night I think I finally fell asleep around 4:00 AM, and the night before bedtime didn’t arrive until after the sun had started poking over the horizon. Since this has been going on for more than a week now I’ve finally given up on trying to sleep, and am searching out new and exciting activities that can be pursued in a diminished mental state. For me that’s saying a lot, considering that my normal mental state is much closer to “functional” than “intelligent”.

Thus far the attempts at finding suitable activities haven’t been good. On Wednesday I naively started trying to read Homer’s Odyssey at 1:30 AM; Green Eggs and Ham probably would have been a challenge, and Homer might as well have written in Swahili for all the progress I was making. Thursday night was spent attempting to fix up some code I’ve been writing, the result of which is that I now have lots of code with comments in it like “FIXME - this worked earlier, didn't it?“. Tonight my plan had been to partake of unhealthy quantities of alcohol in an effort to induce a sleep-like state, but after failing to locate suitable drinking buddies I settled for an evening of admiring Natalie Portman’s (acting) in Garden State, and now, at nearly 3:30 AM, have spent almost a half hour attempting to put together just two coherent paragraphs. At this rate future activities may be limited to finger painting and playdough.

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